When I’m on a wave I feel like this, so long as I’m not too occupied by some grudge against a chauvinistic dude. I can even feel the way the wax moves under each one of my toes. How often, outside of the ocean, do I ever think about what my toes are feeling? Never, really. Some waves, the really good ones, even seem to move slower than the rest of life. I notice the way they change colors as I ride them. I’m happy to realize I’m so present in my surfing experiences, but I want to transfer this to the land, as well.
I’ve had this odd day dream in my mind lately of Ross and Rachel and all the Friends crew talking and sitting around Central Perk, the coffee shop they always hung out at. I’ve been asking myself: How did they just sit there so relaxed? Aren’t they thinking: I have to go get some work done! I need to clean the house! Go to the bank!… ? It never seems like it. They took time for that stuff and then they made time away from it. They are always so present in those moments, enjoying each other’s company, passing the time with stories. I guess it helps that they have fictitious jobs and that Joey barely ever has one, but there are aspects of those scenes that I want for myself; moments in the day when I feel totally unconcerned with anything but what’s happening in front of me: my life, my only one.
I want to say I’m good at being present, being satisfied with what I have and who I am and not letting my mind wander to what I should be doing or what I want to accomplish, but I’m not sure that’s true; at least not as much as I would like it to be.
Let’s just say, I’m trying and I’m going to try harder and during all of this, I am going to think of those moments the Friends crew had sitting around Central Perk waiting for Gunther to bring them their drinks and how unconcerned they seemed with anything else. How they were making the meaningful memories then (and not worrying about Instagramming them). And picturing this is going to help me visualize what I want, at least some of the day, even if it’s just a story.
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